Ok So Here's An Idea

I've been doing some thinking and how about instead of this blog being mainly about me and my life I could use it to do something I've always wanted to do: discover music and write a little about it. I love browsing google and youtube and finding music that's new to me. More often times than not I end up finding a band that was last active in 2008 but that doesn't mean that their music isn't good anymore. I do everything in my power to try and help support the arts, support starving artist and up and coming bands. It's sad when you find a group that has some songs on youtube and when you do some more digging you find that they never got signed so all there is is those three or four songs on youtube and a handful more on their myspace. So my posts about different bands won't really be reviews but kind a summary or a highlight, talkin about who they are, where they come from, a list of their songs or albums and some other things. I kind of want this blog to be a salute to all of the artists and musicians that are trying to make it out there in the world because lord knows I'll be one of them one day.

I'm back!

Well hello there friends! I'm back and I don't know if I'm here to stay. There has been a looooott of shit that's happened since the last time I posted. The last time was back in 2012 so I was 14 or 15. As of today I am 17 and a senior in high school. If you want to know everything that has happened to me in addition to some of the things I didn't talk about before while I was still using this in 2012 then I have a few ideas in mind to keep everything organized and hopefully interesting. I know for a fact my life is far more interesting now than it was in 2012, your life can only be but so interesting as a freshmen. Just give me a few days to start planing and organizing and I'll be back talking about everything. 

Lets try this again

After looking at the pageveiws this lame ass blog gets I realized that I need to step my game up. I really don't know why people from Russia look at this (not that I don't want you to) but it kind of feels like people kind of count on this blog? I don't mean count on it like you know, but just kind of expect to get on here and find something new to read. So, lets talk about the sun. Now don't expect something sciencey and crap because this will prolly be everything but. The sun is great, at times. I mean it grows our crops and does this and that and if there was no sun then we would all freeze and die. But sometimes I don't want to walk outside and it being hott as hell. It doesn't get too hott here so I'm lucky. But I feel bad for alll those people living in the hottest of places. Now I am not about to name a bunch of hott places because that requires me to spell them correctly and that's a lot of work. The sun may be great for all you pale and paste-y  people who need to darken up a bit, but as for me I don't want to get darker. I hate it when the days get "longer" because that means I have to deal with the sun longer than I have to! Sometimes I like to wake up to the sun because I feel bad when I sleep later than 9:30 on Saturdays but on week days I do not want the sun any where near me  untill it is time for me to leave the house. I like to go to sleep in the dark and I like to wake up in the dark. Thank God I have black curtains. I don't hate to sun completely. Even though I don't really like the day time, I don't like the night on most days. Night is a scary place for me and my mind. And I kind of like it when its cold and windy and there's the sun to warm my face. Me and the sun have a love-hate relationship and I'm ok with it, I wouldn't have it any other way. Maybe I'll talk about grass tomorrow.


Poes Annabel

Unmarked

I

Do you not see my silent crys?

Do you not hear my pain?

Do you not care that you’re hurting me?

Do you know you’re driving me insane?

“Why can’t you hear me calling out?”

                “It’s much too late to hear.”

“Why can’t you feel me reaching out?”

                “It’s far too late to feel.”

“Every word has been spoken

To take the pain away.”

That’s the lie you tell your self

Every single day.

II

Did you not see my silent crys?

Did you not hear my pain?

Did you not care that you were hurting me?

Did you know you were driving me insane?

“Why couldn’t you hear me calling out?”

                “It was much too late to hear”

“Why couldn’t you feel me reaching out?”

                “It was far too late to feel”

I know you tried your hardest

To take the pain away.

But none of this was your fault,

Today was just the day.

Heyyy

Heyy, what's up? Yea its been awhile. It took me awhile to get back into using Annabel since I didn't have her for a few days as you all know. Lots of stuff had happened between now and then and I'm not even going to to talk about them.

Mind control?!

Oh hello everyone! I posteed this with my mind! I wish I could but I didn't. I made this ahead, like on sunday night. So I'm gonna guess what happened today. I woke up with Annabel gone because mother left for her trip early that mourning so I will be slightly sad because I can't tell everyone what I dreameded about not that I would have time for that. Well I could since I a whole hour from the time I wake up to the time I normally eat if I'm forced to. Well no I go down at 8 so i don't have to eat since it's too late for that crap then. Anyways, I'll prolly get to the bus stop and say hey to Effie and tell her that my laptop is gone but I'll prolly tell her/would have told her on monday. Then I'll get on the bus and go to school then waste time until it's time to go to class but I'll be slightly late as always. It'll be a B day so I'll have life skills, oh joy. I'm not even gonna guess what I'm gonna do in the first three periods but I know already that I'm most likely not going to eat lunch. Woah, did you know that there is only one L in until? I had no clue. Anyways, after walking for lunch I'll go to spanish and have fun! Ok, who has netflix? Not this one. I asked my mom if I could get it for my birthday and she was like

"all you'll want to do is watch netflix and not want to do anything anymore because you can watch what ever all day long and you'll get bad grades and you'll get fat because you won't want to do soccer anymore because you'll be in your room all day watching netflix"

She really did say that in one sentence. So I just told her ok what ever. Wait, why am I talking about netflix? hahaha Oh yea, there was a netflix add in the other tab. 

Now, let us talk about this blog for a hot second. I think I am going to do a thing call 'Lets talk about...'. Now I'm not sure if the title should be that or should I put what I'm going to be talking about in there. In that thing I'm going to talk about random things like dancing and the colour carpet. Wait, I'm talking about this when this is going up wednesday. Oh well! I'll start it next week i guess. Anyways, I'll be talking about random things and it'll prolly be boring because I picked the random thing so if you want me to talk about something of your choosing then please say so. I think that's all I have to say. I have to make two more post for thursday and friday mourningish before tuesday. What am I talking about, I have plenty of time. Watch these be made the same day it's posted from some other computer. Oh well!

Poes Annabel

Whatever

So my dad is ignoring me and I'm kind of ok with it. I mean it doesn't really break my heart that hes not talking to me, it's not like we spend hours talking to each other so there's nothing really to miss. I this will prolly bite me in the ass because my mom is leaving tomorrow and if I need something then I can't ask her, I have to ask him and he prolly won't even look at me when I'm talking to him. But two can play at that game sir. I hope soon he realizes that I'm some what enjoying him not talking to me and I can return the ball just as well as he served it. Now I don't like it when people just talk to me but that normally when I don't know why they're not talking to me. I know why he's not talking. It's all because I hung up on him this mourning. I get, well it's really got since I don't call that person anymore because I know they will hang up on me in the middle of the conversation, don't worry, I'll talk about that in a min, hung up on all the time and I don't make a big deal out of it, well anymore, by ignoring the person. Ok now, I used to call this person when ever I needed to be distracted and if I'm lucky I would find something that that person would want to talk about. If I didn't then the whole time we were on the phone it would either be quite or I would just ramble on about nothing. Now my problem with that was/is when ever this person is talking to anybody else they have everything in the world to say to them. This person talks to people so differently from the way they talk to me and I'm not going to lie that kind of makes me mad. It makes me mad at them and my self. It makes me mad at them because why can't they talk to me like that! But it makes me mad at myself because that person doesn't feel like they can talk to me the same as they talk to their other friends. I could go on and on about that but I won't right now, but maybe later. Back to being on the phone with that person, after close to an hour or just sitting there I would realize I was talking to myself for ten minutes because they hung up on me, on purpose. This person I guess never really knew how mad it made me. Then I wasn't mad at the person, I was mad at my self, but now it's kind of both now that I look back at those times. Person, if you think I'm talking about you then I am. Now, back to my dad. So I don't know when he will feel like talking to me but I don't really care. I better stop before I'm mad at the world.

Poes Annabel